Lord, who should I turn to first but you? You
have given me another day. This gift calls me to come to you first, to hear you first. My faith
tells me there can be nothing better than to follow your plan; my hope is to bring you into my life
and to other people; my love wants to be fuller and better it wants to be like yours, Lord.
Grant me the grace of deeper trust and faith in all moments of
1. "…afflicted with hemorrhages for twelve years:"
problems are prolonged, or reach fever-pitch levels, we can get the mistaken impression that God has
lost interest. Somehow he seems no longer moved by our misery. All the signs say he has
forgotten us, abandoned us and left us hanging. But God is only seemingly absent. He is creating a
new set of circumstances wherein we can experience him at a wholly new level. The long, hard
and persevering fight to walk in hope enables God to bring about greater fruits of holiness in us.
In the woman with the hemorrhage and in Jairus, father of a dying daughter, we must contemplate a
mature and vibrant faith, observing how it conquers pessimism and transcends the cold calculations
and superficial tones of their peers. Truly this is the first miracle we see that Jesus has
worked for them, and the most important one.
2. "And they ridiculed him. Then he put them
The dismal voices of his "friends" come to the father. Though they have seen
the miracle of the woman with the hemorrhage, they coldly say, "Your daughter is dead. Be realistic.
It is no use to go on." True, in the name of realism, we can dismiss hope and cooperation with
Christ's action in our life. We can ridicule Christ whenever he wants to work in mystery and outside
our human limits. We can be tempted to abandon trust in God in the name of reaffirming control over
our world. "Let's be realistic," we say. "It will never work." These phrases veil a weak faith, a
poor faith, a sterile or compartmentalized faith that works only when everything makes sense to us,
when everything is easy. Where there is this lack of faith, Christ cannot work.
3. “If I but touch his clothes, I shall be cured:"
Many say they are
near Christ, yet few are acknowledged by Christ as close to him. Many were brushing against him that
day, many were verbally praising him, many were serving him, but only one touched him and got his
full attention. Why? Only one made an act of unconditional faith. What is the secret? How can we
really get his attention, truly speak to his heart? None are closer than those who trust him, who
humbly depend on him, and who wish to live from him. The woman's unconditional faith was open to
whatever would happen, whatever would be Christ's response. Those who suffer and support
themselves patiently with faith and prayer experience new levels of union with
Conversation with Christ:
Lord let me use hardships to build newer
levels of trust and
intimacy with you. Open my heart to seek you on your terms.
not ask you for happiness or sorrow, Health or sickness,
Riches or poverty, Freedom or slavery,
Goods or evils;
For goods are misfortunes if you do not come with them,
And misfortunes are
goods if they arrive with you.
For goods without you, what good would they be?
with you, are they not the best goods?
I will acknowledge the
presence of Christ in all the difficulties of today.